12w1d

I LOOK:

Tired. Pimply. A bit fat.

I FEEL:

Pretty good from about 9 am to 6 pm. Before that or after that I've exhaused and I want to sleep! The nausea stopped about week eleven (thank goodness) as suddenly as it started. I got a cold last week and it has been hanging on (in the snot phrase) for a bit too long. So much snot...

I CRAVE:

Kraft mac and cheese! All the time and without ceasing :)

I THINK:

• I am so glad to be done with the nausea! Overjoyed that the "good feeling" trimester is starting.
• I'd rather look pregnant than fat, but I don't see that happening.
• I'm ready for the world to know and it is killing me not to shout from the rooftop!
• Sleep is good (repeated from 8w).

I HOPE: God keeps knitting together a perfect baby for our family. All the screening tests and doctor's vivists over the next two weeks go smoothly and I am able to manage them with work.

DOCs SAY:

A week ago, we have a wonderful visit for Dr. Jebilli, our funny ObGyn. My mom was able to come with us and see Baby Pixie moving around. In the above u/s picture the balls of white above the baby's tummy are arms and legs. On the actual u/s you could see the seperation of fingers and toes. Pixie measured a few days bigger than before, so our official due date has been moved to April 3, 2011!

Friday the 17th I went to turn in papers and give blood. Sept. 23rd I go back to get the results and complete a physical, and the 24th I have another ultrasound for an NT scan and to see the baby again!!

Nov. 14th is the date set for the big, gender reveal ultrasound!

8w4d

I LOOK:
Like a pimply teenagers. I have five or six big zits with more appearing daily. My stomach is changing a bit, mainly just firming up under the extra skin but you can't tell by looking at me.

I FEEL:
Nauseous. Nauseous all the time. In the morning when I wake up, after I eat breakfast, and at night after dinner are the worst times. The middle of the day has been pretty "normal" but that may have to do with the fact that last week was the first week of school and I was incredibly busy. I have thrown up several times in the evening... usually directly after I eat. I'm also exhausted contstantly; however, this could have more to do with the first week of school than with being pregnant.

I CRAVE:
nothing. I don't particularly want to eat.

I THINK:

• this part of pregnancy sucks. Feeling nauseous without being able to throw up is worse than actually throwing up.
• baby names are coming even though Dave keeps vetoing them
• sleep is good.

I HOPE:

that God protects this baby as he/she grows healthy and at our next appointment we'll see a happy moving baby. Selfishly, I'd really like the morning/all day sickness to ease itself quickly.

DOCs SAY:

next appointment is at 10w5d

Throwing Up

Um, so my morning sicknessness is actually evening sickness... for the past three nights I've thrown up around 10.

Yuck.

Week 5

Just spent the last full week on a cruise with my parents and family friends without spilling the beans--super proud of myself! Although the flipside of that is that it doesn't quite seem real that there is a tiny baby growing inside of me.

For my sake and the fact that I am not talking to anyone about this yet (and Dave doesn't really have a desire to hear everything), here is what's going on with my body:

I LOOK:
exactly the same, minus the tired eyes from being unable to sleep soundly

I FEEL:
strange all the time--when I have to go to the bathroom, I have to go NOW or I get pretty intense cramps. I have random strange girgles coming from my lower stomach. Tired doesn't even cover the exhaustion. My contacts never seem to be clear and the world looks a bit blurry in them (perfectly fine in my glasses). Thankfully, I have had very little nausea and the little I did have was because I ate breakfast too late.

I CRAVE:
bread--any type. On the cruise that translated into a lot of sour dough rolls and several toasted plain bagels for breakfast.

I THINK:
sleep is good and I should be able to sleep well in my own bed tonight.

I HOPE:
my head cold goes away on its own
this baby keeps growing healthy in my tummy
that during next week's appointment we can see and hear the baby

DOCs SAY:
no medicine (that actually works) for this cold... grrr